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Title: As If You Have a Choice: Epilogue (3/3)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Clint/Natasha
Rating: Adult, 17+
Warnings: language, buckets of angst, discussion of abortion, did I mention angst? No, really
Spoilers: none
Type: complete
Word Count: 421
Summary: She knew, without a shadow of a doubt, there was no way for a child to work in their life. None. Even if they were willing to leave what they did for a living behind (which was as essential to both of them as breathing) there would be no way to keep it safe. Too many people would be interested in the child of a Black Widow, particularly one who’d been enhanced like she had - either for experimentation, leverage, or revenge.

Author's Notes:
Many, many, many thank yous to my betas kadollan, sweetwatersong, anuna_81, and SidheRa (if I've forgotten someone else I bounced this off of, I apologize profusely)... this story took forever and a lot of hand-holding to write.

There's no character death, but I'm not kidding about the angst, y'all.

In re: "discussion of abortion" - this isn't meant to be a political stance on the issue one way or t'other. It's simply how I feel these particular characters would view/discuss/approach the issue, period.

In re: POVs - Clint has always been the one telling me this story. The very first scene I had in my head was one of their central conversations, and the bucket-o-feels he had about the subject. I had always intended to go back and write in Natasha's points of view to alternate with his, because that makes sense and it's absolutely her story too and involves her just as much, but all I could ever get out of her was the intro. Then finally, after seriously considering giving up on the whole project, I got the epilogue from her in one mad rush in the middle of the night - but nothing else. I think the epilogue gives a better explanation of *why* she didn't want to "talk" about the rest of the fic.

If you want the soundtrack, it's Snow Patrol's "Run".


Dear Daughter (a letter unsent)Collapse )
Title: As If You Have a Choice (2/3)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Clint/Natasha
Rating: Adult, 17+
Warnings: language, buckets of angst, discussion of abortion, did I mention angst? No, really
Spoilers: none
Type: complete
Word Count: 6,360
Summary: She knew, without a shadow of a doubt, there was no way for a child to work in their life. None. Even if they were willing to leave what they did for a living behind (which was as essential to both of them as breathing) there would be no way to keep it safe. Too many people would be interested in the child of a Black Widow, particularly one who’d been enhanced like she had - either for experimentation, leverage, or revenge.

Author's Notes:
Many, many, many thank yous to my betas kadollan, sweetwatersong, anuna_81, and SidheRa (if I've forgotten someone else I bounced this off of, I apologize profusely)... this story took forever and a lot of hand-holding to write.

There's no character death, but I'm not kidding about the angst, y'all.

In re: "discussion of abortion" - this isn't meant to be a political stance on the issue one way or t'other. It's simply how I feel these particular characters would view/discuss/approach the issue, period.

In re: POVs - Clint has always been the one telling me this story. The very first scene I had in my head was one of their central conversations, and the bucket-o-feels he had about the subject. I had always intended to go back and write in Natasha's points of view to alternate with his, because that makes sense and it's absolutely her story too and involves her just as much, but all I could ever get out of her was the intro. Then finally, after seriously considering giving up on the whole project, I got the epilogue from her in one mad rush in the middle of the night - but nothing else. I think the epilogue gives a better explanation of *why* she didn't want to "talk" about the rest of the fic.

If you want the soundtrack, it's Snow Patrol's "Run".


You don't know what you're askingCollapse )
Title: As If You Have a Choice: Prologue (1/3)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Clint/Natasha
Rating: Adult, 17+
Warnings: language, buckets of angst, discussion of abortion, did I mention angst? No, really
Spoilers: none
Type: complete
Word Count: 391
Summary: She knew, without a shadow of a doubt, there was no way for a child to work in their life. None. Even if they were willing to leave what they did for a living behind (which was as essential to both of them as breathing) there would be no way to keep it safe. Too many people would be interested in the child of a Black Widow, particularly one who’d been enhanced like she had - either for experimentation, leverage, or revenge.

Author's Notes:
Many, many, many thank yous to my betas kadollan, sweetwatersong, anuna_81, and SidheRa (if I've forgotten someone else I bounced this off of, I apologize profusely)... this story took forever and a lot of hand-holding to write.

There's no character death, but I'm not kidding about the angst, y'all.

In re: "discussion of abortion" - this isn't meant to be a political stance on the issue one way or t'other. It's simply how I feel these particular characters would view/discuss/approach the issue, period.

In re: POVs - Clint has always been the one telling me this story. The very first scene I had in my head was one of their central conversations, and the bucket-o-feels he had about the subject. I had always intended to go back and write in Natasha's points of view to alternate with his, because that makes sense and it's absolutely her story too and involves her just as much, but all I could ever get out of her was the intro. Then finally, after seriously considering giving up on the whole project, I got the epilogue from her in one mad rush in the middle of the night - but nothing else. I think the epilogue gives a better explanation of *why* she didn't want to "talk" about the rest of the fic.

If you want the soundtrack, it's Snow Patrol's "Run".


Her first thought was 'no'.Collapse )
Title: Waking Up (6/6)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: thoughts that could be considered passively suicidal
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 300
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".

Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.

RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.

Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

Any number of people could've been sent for her.Collapse )
Title: Waking Up (5/6)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: adult themes, violence, mentions of terrorism, bombing, and non-graphic mentions of harm to children
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 701
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".

Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.

RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.

Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4

Ever since he'd taken his place... he'd felt like something was offCollapse )
Title: Waking Up (4/6)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: adult themes, mental instability
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 228
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".

Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.

RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.

Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3

She didn't think it was a very pleasant dream.Collapse )
Title: Waking Up (3/6)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: adult themes, violence, language, assassins are not always nice people
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 341
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".

Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.

Oh, who am I kidding. Three of the last four are extremely short, I'm just going to go ahead and post them all tonight. (Also, I'm impatient.)

RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.

Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.

Chapter 1
Chapter 2

He wondered where his own lines were.Collapse )
Title: Stages of Grief
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: pre-Clint/Kate (if you choose to see it that way), Kate/OMC (unnamed)
Rating: Teen, 15+
Warnings: extended absences, coping, mentions of therapy, angst, language
Spoilers: none
Type: stand-alone
Word Count: 2,364
Summary: Despite the title, NOT a character death fic (other than brief mentions of canonical character death in the past). Clint and his team go missing for an extended period of time, and Kate has to figure out how to deal with that.

Author's Notes:
Lots of cookies for kadollan for the beta, and for putting up with me pressing the Hawkeye comic (and subsequent fanfiction, though maybe not in that order) on her so that she could beta for me. ;-)

I somehow hooked onto the idea of how Kate would handle it if Clint (along with his team) just up and vanished on a mission sometime, and didn't come back for months. (Which, let's face it, is bound to happen sooner or later because, hello, have you read Marvel comics? I give you Secret Wars.) - No idea where he is, whether he's alive or dead, etc. Apparently Kate had opinions about this, because the next thing I knew, this had happened. I finally settled on the idea of the stages of grief for a structure, and got the distinct impression that Kate is the kind of person who would be the boss of her own brain and emotions in a lot of ways. She's got this fantastic self-awareness going on that I love.

I freely admit this is my first foray into this corner of fandom, and I'm mostly familiar with Kate through the Hawkeye comics and fic, so be gentle with me?


It's a perfectly normal TuesdayCollapse )
Title: Fugue
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Coulson/The Cellist
Rating: PG
Warnings: language
Spoilers: None
Type: Vignette
Word Count: 975
Summary: First chances, first meetings, tough decisions.

Author's Notes: See Chapter 1 for more notes.

Thanks again to kadollan, anuna_81, and sweetwatersong for the beta work. :)

An Interlude to Heavy in Your Arms.

It was a lovely receptionCollapse )
Title: Heavy in Your Arms (10/15)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Clint/Natasha, Coulson/The Cellist, Fury/OFC, Bobbi/Maria
Rating: Adult 17+
Warnings: language, maybe
Spoilers: None
Type: WIP
Word Count: 2,595
Summary: The calm in the eye of the storm.

Author's Notes: See Chapter 1 for more notes.

As always, many thanks to kadollan, anuna_81, and sweetwatersong for the beta work and support. :)

Technically, this takes place at the same time as Maria's first day back on the job, leading up to the conversation/planning session that Bobbi, Phil, and Maria have at the end of the last chapter. Apologies for the dodgy order of things.

She didn't want to go back. She never wanted to go back.Collapse )

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